Saturday, September 26, 2009

Most memorable day: 21st birthday!! ;)

( Tinker Bell fly's at night during the fire works!)
A cool breeze struck past me as we headed off to the library. This was the last thing on my mind I wanted to do..spend thursday night in the library. Thursday is the new friday...this is the time people go out because they don't have class on friday. I always see girls all dolled up and dressed in party clothes. I didn't care to party, but I didn't want to study; at that moment I realized that in 8 hours I would be twenty one! October is usually the time when midterms are around the corner which was why me and my bf were forced to go study that day.

Looking up at the clock I realized that I haven't eaten day...I was about to say hey let's order out when my phone went off. I had received a text from my roommates and sister saying to come join them at Fuku sushi for my roommate's bf's birthday dinner. Little did I know about what the night was going to unfold...

As we ( me and my bf) were walking to university I noticed that none of us had enough money to eat so we decided to pretend like we had eaten a big meal and simply came to socialize with everyone. My stomach begin to growl the moment I stepped into fuku sushi. The atmosphere was colorful with red lights, and people laughing and having a good time eating their ordorful sushi and fried oysters.

I approached the table and noticed that there was no room for me and my bf to sit. I shifted my way through the crowd to grab a chair and bring it to the table. Some people had already ordered food and asked if I was ready to order. I forced a smile and said "nahhh I'm full, thanks though.." Next thing I knew the whole table seemed to be filled with more and more mountains of shrimp, yellow tale, salmon, crab, and fried octopus. My stomach was growling so loud, but luckily it was too loud for anyone to hear. I couldn't focus on anything but the food. I didn't speak to anyone much, just watched them dip the sushi and swirl it around in the tariaki sauce and wasabi. Finally, someone had noticed that I was staring at their food and offered me some; embarrassed that I had done that, I decided to suck it up and smile politely and say " no thanks."

Looking at the clock, I thought that we'd be out of there in no time, but boy was I wrong! The night just kept growing longer and longer. Everyone seemed to be enjoying themselves, but me. I looked at my bf and even he was laughing and joking around with his roommate; I don't think anyone was able to know that he didn't eat the whole night. Seeing his behavior, I decided to socialize more and to stop thinking about food. Before I could do that, I was interrupted by a announcer that was introducing a new stand up comedian.

At first his jokes were okay, I laughed a little softly and smiled, but he didn't make me want to chuckle. As his jokes progressed he sounded more sexual. Everyone bursted out laughing, but me. I don't know why, but to me his jokes weren't that funny. I didn't smile or chuckle, I just stared at those who's faces had turned red from laughter. I was anticipating the time when we could leave, but it just wasn't going to happen. I looked up at the clock..It was passed midnight; about 15 minutes after...and this was how my birthday had began. I was hungry and tired and all I wanted to do was go home and jump in my bed and sing that song "it's my party and I can cry if I want too..."

I couldn't hold my unhappiness any longer! My stomach growled so much, that I grew tired from starvation and decided I didn't want to eat anymore because I was SOO tired and grouchy. My own unhappiness had ruined my appetite. I looked up at people's faces still enjoying the comedian and ignorant of the fact that it was my birthday. I looked over at my bf, his cheeks revealed his bright, white teeth.. how on earth was he able to laugh without any food in his tummy!! I sighed...and looked at the clock. without thinking I blurted out "my birthday sucks!" I thought that people would hear me, but I was wrong the only person who heard me was the people near me. I caught a glimpse of my bf's face from my prepheral vision...I saw his long lashes blinking at me, his teeth had hidden behind the frown that was upon his face. Without any notice I saw him whisper something to his friend and they both suddenly got up and left from the table...

At this point everyone had focused their attention on my bf's and his friend. "Where is he going," everyone asked. I honestly didn't know what was going on, but I really didn't care I was too "what ever" about everything.. All of sudden my bf comes back and holds my hand in his hand and says " We're going to Disney land!" At this I was startled, everyone seemed to be looking at my bf in awe. They all heard the good news and said wow you're going to Disney land!?

I didn't respond cause I was just flabbergasted.. and I said no. His smile disappeared and everyone had looked at me like I was crazy... I replied once more and I said yes...but the fact that I said no in front of everyone just killed it and it was a really memorable day.. we drove to Disney land and all the way back in just one day! This was because my bf wanted to make sure I could make it to class on Friday. Who does that? NO ONE... but, the people who *really* CARE! :)

Friday, September 25, 2009

New haircut


Today was not such a good day because I don't like my haircut! :( Getting a new haircut takes some getting use to since I haven't gotten one for like 3 years. I cut off about 6-9 inches of my hair off..I don't know why but many men say they like long hair becaue it is more femminant. I decieded to do some research to find out why. Before I show you my results, personally I think that it is more attractive to them because they want something to grab and men like small faces so long hair hides women's faces. But my face is sooo small already! c'mmon I wear children's frames in glasses and I am 21... That's why I thought of cutting my hair shorter so that my face wouldn't look so small. But too bad I still look like im 16, on some days 18, and maybe even 20 if i wear something more profressional. oh well, im stuck with my small face and it's always a plus to look young...right?

Anyways someone from yahoo answers found that Linda and Jack palmer from the Discovery Health Channel, say "there have been studies that prove men are attracted to long hair because it signifies good health and fertility. Subconsciously men are hardwired to notice tiny details in women such as fullness of the cheeks, color of the skin and other more sexual details that indicate a good candidate for passing on genes with a good partner. On a purely animalistic (pre health care caveman days) level a woman that is healthy enough to grow nice long hair is probably not sickly or vitamin deficient. It is a biological advantage for a male to pass on his genes to a female that is healthy enough to carry his offspring to term and beyond." I think that is so stupid and it shouldn't matter if a women has long or short hair, you know? What if she has a pretty face? Which one is better a not so good looking female face with long gorgeous hair or a short haired women with a beautiful face...I'm talking perfect complexion, smooth skin, small face, big bold eyes, and soft lips...lol (you know what ever is attractive for males...Idk) It shouldn't matter about the hair, but I guess it does!

It all depends on culture really. In Africa having short or no hair can be attractive and in places like India long, black hair is always attractive. In Indian culture having short hair is mainly things that little girls have. Having short hair looks cute, but not attractive. Lol Janelle from yahoo answers says " It's sexy! just like flowy dresses, long hair hides and reveals..." welll Janelle... (if that's your real name! :)), I guess your illistrating that short to medium hair is more modest! A more logical reason for males to say that they like long hair is because a lot of men have short hair and women are suppose to be opposite from men. If a man has short hair and a woman has short hair then he might feel like the woman is too close to having his characterisitc which is short hair...I explained this a little oddly, but hopefully you get the picture...geez let me put it this way...when you see a girl hugging a guy with short hair as well, with the girl's face buried in his arms, it looks like the guy is hugging a guy not a girl. Same thing would occur if I was hugging a guy with really long hair up to his shoulders, it would look like two girls hugging, if you couldn;t see his face.

Anyways it's a cute style, but I'm a little worried.. I don't look the same without long hair. My hair doesn't do that flippy thing because it's too short and I can't put it up as high. And it's too short from the back because it doesn't flow alll the way down to my back. No worries though, If I am confident about my hair than I think I can play it off. It's all about finding what style works best with your messsed up hair...If it looks like i love my hair than I bet people will love my hair too!

Thursday, September 24, 2009

ABCD


The following blog is my personal statement..(I wrote this in High School)

I always thought that being an American meant that one was born and raised in America. Or perhaps one is an American when he or she first becomes a citizen. I'm not sure anymore because at school I say I was born here, in America, but people at school still remember me as that "Indian girl." Yet when I am at home; my mother always nags about how I am so "Americanized" and that i don't know anything about my culture. I don't understand. I attend cultural festivals and naturally practice traditional dances, but I feel at times my mom was right. I don't know anything about my culture.
Although I know how to speak my native language, I naturally speak English at home because I'm use to it at school. Sometimes I feel more American than Indian. For example when I went to India I couldn't relate to anything people talked about or did. Since I grew up in America, I have such a different persepective of life than them. There was even a time when this girl wouldn't talk to me because I told her I was from America. I didn't understand because I'm the same race as she is, but she said I am American not Indian. I did not care what she said, It doesn't matter to me what I am as long as I belong somewhere. I turned to her and said, "yes I am American and very proud of it too!"
Reflecting back on what I wrote about four years ago, I realize that things have changed...
For example, Things are different in highschool than in college. In college people don't seem to care about race, instead it is embraced. It was difficult growing up in high school because I was surounded by people of the same race, mostly white. Thus, I was identified and labled as different. Now in college, it's not "abnormal" to see a bunch of brown people walking around. You don't see white people pointing out and saying heyyy look a brown girl. In high school people were racist because I wasn't white like the rest of them so I got picked on. They made up things like Indian girls smell and don't shower... I smell fine (thank you very much..You know i use deodorant!) Anyways, It seems (some) kids will always be stupid and ignorant when they are young and eventually (some) grow out of it.

What Things Make You a Women or A Man (Other Than Anatomy)


This is an interesting topic... before I write this blog I just want you to know that this is only my opinion based on experience no facts ( although some things i say should be a fact because it's true in all cases!)
It is true that a man and a women see things differently because our brains our wired differently obviously! Take for example:

1. Relationships:
When men first get into a relationship they want a girl who looks very attractive so they can go to their friends and brag about it. They want to make all their fellow males jealous of them because they have a hot girl on their arm. At first the relationship is all purely physical, men don't care too much about what our personality has to offer. Why do I see it this way? well because of the way men talk to each other about women. They ask about all the physical things like what have you done with her? Is she hot? (And some men actually do let their friends know about these details, but fortunately mine doesn't :).. I am very lucky to have him he has never talked inappropriate about me and he never shares anything with his stupid friends when they do ask him those questions...not that their is anything to share... but he did brag about my looks in an appropriate manner!).While on the other hand, when a women is seeking a relationship it is also physical but also has to do with personality. When women talk about their new relationship they say things like "I enjoyed talking to him he is the sweetest guy, he always offers to walk me home, he makes me feel special, he tells me that I'm the most beautiful girl that he's seen, and he tells me I look hot in my pajama's or he is a good listener; I talk so much and yet is always interested in everything I say." When women talk about physical appearance they usually say things like his eyes are so dreamy, he has broad shoulders that make me melt when he holds me, his hair feels so smooth when i run my fingers through it..etc. The difference between me and my bf is that yes in the beginning he was into my looks, while I was into both because it's hard to find a good guy these days. I was really concerned on how I was going to be treated.
When men break up with women they do it by a phone call saying " I hate you, you ruined my life, and then later call back and say hey there is still a chance that it can work, I love you." When women break up with men they cry and poor their heart out, they are angry and hurt and feel like men are all stupid and they can never understand women. They hang up the phone and say I am not going to think about him anymore and run and cry to their girlfriends. They say things like I don't need him, I have my girls.

2. Handwriting:
When men write they write the same way...skinny chicken scratch with little decoration and you can barely read what their writing says. Women decorate their writing with color and highlight important information. They also write in giant letters with big loops for letters like O, P, B, D, G, and Q. They use spaces to write on another topic and star the things that are most important.

3. Bathroom:
Women go to the bathroom in pairs, while men prefer to go alone. The number of items women have in the medicine cabinet and skin is too much to count. Men are simple and carry only a few items like gel, razor, shaving cream, toothpaste and toothbrush...and maybe floss.

4. Getting ready:
When a man says he is ready to go then he is ready. When women say that they are ready that means they will SOON be ready when they finish their make up and finish putting on their earrings.

5. Directions:
Women don't like to feel like their lost and will immediately pull over and ask for help. Men don't like to admit that their lost and will spend hours driving in circles and say " I know where we are, but I'm just finding a quicker way." when they finally get to their destination they say "see I knew where we were going and all that matters is I got you there didn't I?"

6. Grooming:
Men groom themselves simply by taking a shower, shaving, and wearing clean clothes that have just been fresh out of the dryer. They finish off by gelling their hair. Women take forever to groom. They focus a lot on detail and freak out over one pimple. They have to wash their hair, shave their legs, blow dry their hair, comb their hair, style their hair, apply make up to their face, pick out their clothes and finally get dressed, and then finish off by wearing deodorant and perfume. They also need to do manicures and pedicures and wax/thread their brows. They also are very sensitive about their weight.

7. (Majority of) Men like to hold and (majority of) women like to be held There are too many

differences to list, but there is one thing in common that males/females have: you can't live with men/women and you can't live without them.

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

Fire n Ice



Which is more painful? Burning to death or freezing to death? In my Opinion I rather be burn to death than freeze to death. Burning to death is something that is done quickly, while freezing to death is a slow painful death. It takes a while for your body to go completely numb. In the end it all comes down to your body. If you are not good with pain than you wouldn’t want to be burn to death. Burning hurts because you have many layers of skin, while freezing slowly numbs you.


Although, some people would rather freeze to death because they hate fire. Think about it would you rather scream, faint, roll on the floor, or clench your teeth and have frost bite all up your arm? People say that freezing to death is less painful because it makes your body numb, and you can simply just wait to die by sleeping I guess. But if I was going to die at the moment, I wouldn't want to be alive to feel it slowly. That's why when people kill a bug with their shoe they do it quickly to put the roach out of its misery. Either that or they don't want the bug to get away.Basically, no one wants a painful death but, not a slow one either. That's why the best way to die is in your sleep, it is painless and comfortable because you just shut down in the bed.


This is so ironic, but on TV the Aztecs had to perform human sacrifice. They do this by sacrificing themselves in fire or sacrificing someone else. My stomach feels sick right now :(. They just sacrificed a guy by striking a harmless man in the jaw and he was tied up and tossed him in the fire for the "gods." They also did things like open up people's chest while their alive, and take the heart out and hold it onto the sky as an offering. Then they brutally tossed the body down the steps. Once the victims were sacrificed their heads were hung as trophies. This is what happens when people are uneducated. They perform brutal rituals because that’s what they believe and there is no one to stop them. I'm going to stop talking now, it's gross I have the bloody images in my mind. It's sad that these kinds of things have happened. That is why we have to be educated so things like this don't happen! It is inhumane and insanity, it makes me wonder how people could not be born with a heart. That’s why they took other people’s hearts…EWWW!!!! It makes me mad!!! These poor people were eaten as well.

Eating Good


I feel good today :). One I am very active. Two I'm getting my nutrition. Three I’m focused in school. Let's start on the active part. I stayed up in the med science library since 7am and then I went home to take a three hour nap. I was very proud of myself because I managed to wake up for class at 11 am even though I had not slept for the full eight hours. Anyways, I don't know how, but I was very focused in class. Probably because it was a psychology law class which is what my major is. After class I came home and ate Lucky charms and fish sticks. It was really random I know. My nutrition has been good because before I went to sleep at 7 am I had raw fish, rice, beans, corn, salad, guacamole, sour cream and cheese on my chipotle rice bowl, yogurt, and a fruit cup. I also had some Arabic rice, green beans, and hummus too, which is also very nutritional. Today I had eggs sunny side up with tortilla, (not so healthy), and egg noodles with onion, tomatoes, green onion, and garlic. I also gave up drinking soda.


Eating good foods has had a strong performance on my well being. For example, after 11 am class, I managed to take a shower, and drive to my doctor’s appointment which was 45 minutes away, without any feelings of fatigue. Then after that I rushed home, printed out my homework for English, cleaned my room, did laundry, and took out the trash. After taking out the trash it was time to go to English class. Immediately after English class, I cooked the egg noodles with tomatoes, onion, green onion and garlic along with the tortilla and sunny side up. Because the eggs were pre boiled it took longer than expected. I spent 2 hours preparing one meal.


Finally, after eating I did some more laundry.It has been two hours now since I started on laundry. I decided to check my d2l while I rest for just a bit, but then I ended up doing homework. And now here I am writing this blog for English 306! It's like I never stayed up last night. Eating right helps the brain function smoothly and that's how I'm active. Hopefully I will be as energized tomorrow. And that's how I stopped procrastination; my body is not sluggish because I eat the right foods. I’m glad I’m not the only one like that. I saw a girl in my 11 o’clock class eating apple chips and another person was eating a granola bar. I noticed that when I’m really hungry healthy food or any kind of food just looks good! If I am not really hungry sometimes I get cravings for junk food, which I’ve learned is only a sign of poor nutrition. Many of the times, healthy food taste good, it’s just many of us are use to eating sweets, burgers, and potato chips because we are living in the U.S.

Pocahauntus


Pocahontas is a cool movie made by Disney. But it's just a movie the real story of Pocahontas is not as happy, and it's really sad. When hearing the real story you begin to see the realistic historical perspective that Europeans had with Native Americans. Basically Native Americans as Disney put it, were looked upon as savages. And, instead of Pocahontas living, she eventually dies! In Disney no one dies, except in Bambi and Lion King. :(

There are a lot of differences from the real story and Disney's version. For example, Pocahontas and John Smith are the same age in the movie, but in real like Pocahontas was only 12, while Smith was in his late 20's. When Pocahontas was seen she wasn't clothed as nicely as she was in the movie, and her figure was nothing like that of Disney's version. Instead she was mostly naked and wore a dress later when she was a little older. John smith probably wasn't as good looking as he was in Disney.

Another big difference is that Pocahontas did not choose Smith, instead they were just friends. She did However, choose John. She chose John only because he took a special interest in her. Unfortunately, Pocahontas was kept captive when she was on a social visit in Jamestown. John agreed to free her if she married him. She ends up marring John and they have a kid. John uses her to commericalize Tobacco and also in a propaganda campaign for the colony. She is forced to be taken off a ship when on her way to Virgina with her husband and son and ends up dying there on the ship.
In the end she is buried, but it is destroyed because they build a church on her burial site. By the way her name is not "Pocahontas" it's only a nickname which means "mischievous child." I think Disney did a good job creating a happy story for our entertainment. But the real story ( in my opinion) is much more entertaining because it's REAL. It is sad, but it is a mark in history that has changed the way people think about others. We are more tolerant today because of our mistakes in the past. Anways if you are wondering why I know all these facts, I researched it on the internet. (http://www.powhatan.org/pocc.html)

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

Strive for Better


I have been staying up for three days straight trying to catch up on school. I need to stop procrastinating...that's what everyone says right?

Well it's true...After watching the Obama stay in school speech I felt motivated to do better this year. We are a nation with a bad reputation in education. Many foreign countries are far superior in their education system. Sure, there may be scientist from Europe, Doctors from India and Architects from the middle East. But America is a melting pot and which means we have doctors, scientists, and architects living and working together. When our knowledge combines we become the powerful country we are today. The United States schooling system is different from many countries. In my opinion I think the united states schooling system is actually good. Over here we are taught to be well rounded people who are forced to think critically and ask questions. Students in the united states don't just sit there and memorize all day. There are also fun activities that we do when we are younger like art, band, music, and even PE was fun. By engaging in these activities at school as children we discover talents that we thought we never had before. For example, I am very creative and it must of came out during those times I had to take art class. Also, ( I think) I am a good writer. I like to make up stories because the information is not simply given it's up to you to put it in words and paint a picture. If I went to school in India I doubt that I would ever discover this creative side that I have. Instead I would memorize facts and focus more on structured learning. Math would be no problem because they don't use calculators; everything is taught by hand. In Japan, students don't ask questions; they just sit there and write notes. There is no talking to the instructor and instead of the kids moving from class to class, the professor leaves and another one comes in and the kids stay at their desk all day.

I like the United States because where else can you learn square dancing in school? Or how about singing in those 5Th grade musicals and plays that you had to perform in your music class? Schooling in the untied states is very social and we interact with each other and that's how you learn to think critically. Also it's nice to see a variety of people from different backgrounds. That way we can learn about each other's cultures and learn to pick up the good characteristics of every group.

Overall, the problem is not the schooling system, but the inability for people to pay for college and high drop out rates in high school. If everyone simply stayed in school and never dropped out that would have a significant increase in our future. The U.S would no longer have a bad reputation when it comes to school.

Monday, September 21, 2009

Why is it so difficult to accept faults


I find it hard to accept my faults in a relationship. It's so easy to accept my faults with a friend because my friends may see it as an accident and it's reasonable to easily forgive me for my bad actions. But when it comes to a relationship it's not so easy to admit my faults because it's too personal. I feel like when I admit my faults it's not good enough because I feel like I am a loser and the one accepting the apology is the winner. I know this is a bad veiw point to have because it definately creates problems and a negative outlook. Instead of improving myself I'm too worried about "winning." Let me explain, it's simple really. The reason why it's hard for me to apologize is because I don't think that the situation is completely my fault. I think it takes two people to make the relationship right and in some circumstances i feel like we shoud both take blame for our actions instead of only one of us saying sorry. If i say sorry, i expect a sorry in return because when people fight both people are hurt, not just one person.

Don't get me wrong, I don't think apologizing makes somone weak. It is good to aplogize because it shows that you cared about wronging the person. But what do you do if you apologize and the person still isn't satisfied. Somtimes sorry isn't enough. I understand that it takes more than words to fix the damage. Somtimes you have to ensure that you don't hurt the person again by taking actions and listeningto what they have to say. If you really listen you will avoid hurting the person in the same way.

However, even though I know this It's STILL hard for me to apologize. I have been critisized so harshly when I was growing up that I completely want to avoid admiting to mistakes because it brings unpleasent feelings like " why can't I do anything right"...."god I always do something dumb and it starts stupid fights" and it's like "Why can't we just forget about it...I didn't mean to make you mad...geez I'm sorry"

According to Ariclesbase.com, "Accepting responsibility for personal actions and decisions is challenging for some. They operate in denial, as though by not admitting fault they haven’t done anything “wrong.” It’s almost as though they are afraid of owning any inappropriate behaviors because then they also might have to take responsibility for other actions. So it’s just easier to avoid and deny than to admit responsibility and apologize"(1). That's exactly how i feel and I couldn't have explained it in better words so thanks articlebase.com.

If you are having the same problems as I am then here are some tips from this website that i think is helpful in both our situations...

1) Be comfortable with saying " I’m so sorry for my part in what happened between us” or ‘I’m so sorry for my part in the misunderstanding" (http://www.articlesbase.com/). I agree with this step because like i said i feel like it's both our faults when something goes wrong and by saying these words I am admiting fault for JUST my part but not the whole thing; it's two wrongs that don't make only one person right.

2) Say, “I don’t know why it’s so hard to apologize sometimes—but it is. This isn’t easy for me to say because I’d rather blame you than look at myself, but I am truly sorry for the things I said last night.” (http://www.articlesbase.com/) By admiting that one has a problem with saying sorry it makes the situation better because it's good to be honest about it.

3) If your partner refuses to make an apology for behavior that deeply hurt you, ask her (or him) if she at least regrets what happened. Some spouses will find it easier to say, “I really regret what happened at the party” than “I’m really sorry for my behavior at the party.” (http://www.articlesbase.com/). This helps the other person realize that you want to apologize and you would want an apology in return. If the person refuses just be honest in how you feel and it helps to treat somone how you want to be treated. So if the person refuses to apologize I agree that by modeling behavior it may help your partner to open up as well. If one person readily apologize then it's easy for the other to react the same way and that makes good coroperation and a healthy relationship! :)
4) "You can’t control what your partner decides to do or not to do, so focus on what you do have control over—your own reactions and behavior" (http://www.ariclebase.com/). I heared this saying so many times and it's so hard to follow. But it's true. It's like you don't want to focus on your own reactions and behavior if your parter is not willing to focus on their actions and behavior as well and instead if they blame you for everything. I need to know that the other person is willing to better themselves if i'm willing to better myself so the job is not entirely up to one person. But I am contradicting what number four is saying because I have no control over my partner. I can't force them to improve if they don't want to; I can only ask.
5) "Write your spouse a handwritten letter (pen and paper—no emails) sharing your feelings and say that in order to move on, you really need some sort of acknowledgement of your feelings and the hurt you have experienced. State that it’s important for you to know your partner cares about your feelings enough to apologize or admit regret for what happened" (http://www.articlebase.com/). This is something that males will never do. It's too girly to write a letter and I have done this. It would be nice to recieve a letter because it shows that the person really does care to take the time to write a letter because they CARE about what I think because they initial care about me; If they didn't care about me then they wouldn't care about what mean thing I did since I am nothing to that person.
It's like this: The ones that you really care for are the ones that can only hurt you...

Friday, September 11, 2009

Sugar Rush


I have just finished baking a cake in the kitchen and I’m excited to eat it (I thought I start on this blog while waiting for the cake to cool). I have been having these cravings for some reason and I don't know why. It's not just me, my roommate have also bought brownies and cake mix as well. It really worries me because these cravings have become strong...if anyone (woman particulary...jk okay men too) have had these strong cravings for sweets than I'm sure you are wondering the same thing. LET'S find out...

According to (wwww.womentown.com), most women have cravings that are sugar, but could also be carbohydrates and alcohol that are NOT a cause of an eating disorder. Instead are signs of a hormonal imbalance caused by a lack of healthy nutrition." So the next time you think that it is just a craving. Think twice. Sometimes I crave sweets when I’m sad. As http://www.womentown.com/ puts it, “your body is signaling for a pick-me up due to adrenal stress."
This makes a lot of sense when I'm sad I always lose a lot of energy from crying, or worrying about whatever it is that's making me sob. It's just like that old tradition millions of women do they eat a bunch of bon bons and sit on the couch or maybe even eat a tub of ice cream because they got dumped. They are losing a lot of energy because they are hurting themselves even more physically than emotionally. So I guess I'll think twice before I cry; it hurts my throat actually and I end up ruining my whole day just sleeping afterwards. The best things to do when your stressed that worked for a lot of people is going for a drive, taking a walk, or better yet go to the source of the problem. Talk it out with the person responsible for making you feel this way and if that person did something unforgivable and you just can't speak with them, and then you need to talk it out with your friends and family.


My goal to stop this problem is eating foods that have natural sweets such as strawberries, kiwis, bananas, grapes, melons, and oranges. Instead of eating potato chips late at night, I’ll fill up on sting cheese and cherries or make a sandwich. Also, to get to my energy up I’ll keep myself happy by working out. Working out can help improve not only your physical health, but your mental health, such as your mood. When I use to work out I felt really good about the way I looked, but more about my health because it kept me happy and whenever I walked outside I was confident about myself. I wasn’t lazy anymore and I would even have the energy to spend 8 eight hours talking on the phone until 2 am and then run to class and manage to get A’s and B’s in my classes. I literally failed all my tests in one of the classes because I talked on the phone, but I managed to pull a B because I didn’t need sleep, since I was so energized. I wasn’t energized by working out, that took away my energy, but eating the right foods really made a significance in my health. It’s like a getting an oil change: you need to change the oil in order to keep your engine finely tuned. If you don’t take care of the oil change then your engine will start to smoke and die. So stay away from sweets, except on your birthday AND wedding, of course. ;)

High Heels Kill

(You should click on this image to see all the heel's complications)

I am not suppose wear high heals because i have a tendon problem, but i can't help it. I think every women knows that they shouldn't wear them cause it hurts to walk in them, they leave your feet with blisters, sometimes my feet have even been swollen, and It can cause a lot of serious health problems that I didn't even know about until I talked to my pediatrist.

It makes sense to have a lot of physical problems with wearing heels because it puts a lot of pressure on the rest of your body such as " The arched back brought on by the heeled shoes alters the positions and angles at which joints are allowed to move" ( Kofoid , 1). Jessica Kofoid also states that "the way the heel creates the look of long, muscular legs actually takes away from the propulsive power of tendon and leg muscles. This power has to be taken from somewhere else, so knees, thighs, hips, and buttocks are strained" (1). This makes sense why the heel part of the shoes always ends up breaking when women are running or sprinting. It's so anyoying because then you don't have shoes for the day. I remember the time when i was running to the bus stop and I decided to wear heels to school. My heel broke and I fell flat on my face and hurt my nose on some brick wall outside. I was lucky i didn't fall on the ground or else I could have broke my noise.

So even though women know this why are they still wearing heels? It's simple...to some women like me, it makes them taller, for others it can can make them look more femmine. Wearing heels doesn't only look professional, but also "create a clasic poise and walk,"as jessica states (1). Heels also cover my feet ( so i don't need to get them done ) and also add style to what ever I am wearing. People really do notice a girl's feet when they have heels on. Jessica also mentions in her article, that they are comming up with new highbrid heels that will minimize the strain that normal heels put on the body. These Hybrid heels contain gels, and soles that basket ball shoes have in order to "distribute weight more evenly around the shoe" ( Koifoid, jessica ,1).

Even though I have this tendant problem, I can't stop wearing heels, but maybe instead i'll buy these hybrid heels so there isn't much stress on my tendant, or just save heels only for a special occasion. However, these days I really haven't been wearing heels. Instead I wear flats and they still are stylish and more comfortable. But flats, don't give off the same vibe as heels which is: I have confidence/attitude.

Promiscuous


As I was driving to the library I decided to break the silence in the car by listening to the radio. However, there was nothing good on the radio. On every station there was always a song about sex. money, and hoes.... it's ridiculous. Its seems that sex appeal is all around us: In movies, on TV, on the radio, and even in commercials.

Sometimes the songs won't even mention anything about girls, but when you watch the video there is nothing but half naked girls pouncing around doing nothing but acting promiscuous. For example, when you watch the music video of "Halo," by Beyonce, there are parts when this man is lying on top of her and she teases him by acting like she is going to kiss him, but she withdraws and ends up stroking his chin very slowly. You may think that isn't as seductive, but there is also a part where beyonce is submerged in water and she is wrapped in a thin layer of towel-like wrap. From the angle they shot her at, you can see her side veiw of her chest. This song has nothing to do with seduction and sex appeal, yet they just had to include it in the video because that's what sells.

In another example, there is a video entitled "Go to church" by ice cube. That song is suppose to be about " if your scared Go to church...for doing bad things i guess.. and the song isn't about girls what so ever. When I watched the video there was this half naked girl oogling her chest around and there was another one sticking her butt out and grinding on snoopdog. I wasn't surprised that there were half naked girls because this was ater all, a rap video. Rap music always have girls prancing around, regardless of the song because that's what the artists likes: naked girls dancing around him.

Everyone knows that there is sex appeal on television and movies, but there is sex appeals especially in commercials. For example, when selling perfumes have you noticed that the models act very sexual. Even the perfume names are sexual, such as Fantasy, Sexual Goddess, Inside, Very Sexy, and Curious. Moreover, on advertises such as Quest Link and Live Links there is a lot of obvious sex appeal there since the girls are saying they want to have a " good time" or "spice up the night." These women are seen twirling their bodies around exposing their stomach and then on the bed with their chest poping out. It seems like talking on the phone is not just talking on the phone, if you know what I mean. Not only are late night dating call networks sexual, but also come on during the day when children are awake. You'd be surprised how many kids have dirty minds.

Is America really that sex crazed? I think so. ( It is not only America, but other countries too...but I am specifically speaking of America based on my experience living here my whole life).

Thursday, September 10, 2009

Plants


I've often heared this theory before and it made me wonder if it was indeeed true that plants do actually have feelings. I think that scientists are still debating on this because of their past experiments with plants. Some have conducted experiments on plants using gagets. I wasn't sure if this was true so I began to research what other people thought of the idea.

I typed this throry in the search engine and indeed people such as Norman from answerbag.com stated, "technicians have attached gages and monitouring devices and have detected immidate changes in plant chemistry and electric impulses when surrounding plants were damaged or cut or burned also when another area of the same plant was touched or damaged." it seems I wasn't the only one who was interested in this theory. In fact, "Plants also use their sense of touch for sex: As the growing pollen tube penetrates the female's style en route to her eggs, it "feels" its way along the ridges on the inside of the style" (http://www.gardenseeker.com/, 1). I also found that "Touch sensitive movement is known to occur in over 1,000 different species of plants. Other common ones are the tendrils of peas, which curl towards a 'touch', and of course the twining stems of beans" (http://www.gardenseeker.com/. 1).

I still wasn't sure of the accuracy of this theory because of these sources so I looked in a more educated source. The Daily Collogeon stated that they too have discovered plants have feelings because "researchers from Michigan State University have discovered that plants have a rudimentary nerve structure, which allows them to feel pain. According to the peer-reviewed journal Plant Physiology, plants are capable of identifying danger, signaling that danger to other plants and marshaling defenses against perceived threats. According to botanist Bill Williams of the Helvetica Institute, "plants not only seem to be aware and to feel pain, they can even communicate" (1).

When I first thought of the idea that plants having feelings I was only nine. I didn't do anything research, just simply made guesses. I thought that they have to feel somtehing because every living on this earth reproduces. I learned about the different ways plants cross polinate. One way plants cross polinate is through seed dispersal. well, in seed dispersal plants disperse their seeds and it is carried through the wind to other plants. I thought to myself " couldn't these plants feel when their seed is on them." Another instance i thought about touch was when I learned about the venus fly trap. When something is near the venus's fly trap shuts. In order to do this, wouldn't the plant have to "sense" that something is near and then react to it? It made sense to me. I also thought about the idea of communication. I've also thought that it may be possible for plants to communicate with each other when they are sick. They are afterall, living and if they can reproduce, then they can also communicate. I belive that yes, plants do have feelings. When you pick at the plants leaves that part of the plant is dead. When I plucked the plant's leaf i notices that the area began to turn brown. Also, during the time i pluck roses from the bush i noticed that the plant itself, within time starts to rot. Plants do communicate, the rose's stem started to bend down almost like it was sad. This communication I'm speaking of isn't verbal communication, but body language. It's showing that without it's roots to support the stem, the flower will began to willow and die. if the plant is healthy it would stand up straight and even it's color would beam. Eventually of course it's normal for the rose to die, even on it's bush. But it is a thought and it got me to research. In the end, my theory hasn't changed. Plant's are living things and it's only in it's nature to feel pain. ( that's just my opinion, this is not a fact).

Plants

Tuesday, September 8, 2009

Obama's School speech


I was watching the news after coming home from 306 and boy was I ashamed! People are actually againt the idea of airing Obama's stay in school speech because of his political background. That's so stupid! What harm is the president doing to kids? Is he telling them to drop out of school? Is he asking them to start looking for jobs instead? Obviously, I'm just trying to establish how stupid the whole idea is. President Obama is a good president because he is actually taking the time to care about kids and their future. These will be the same kids that will some day run the country.

Parents need to put aside their politcal opinions and look at the bigger picture! Someone needs to enforce the idea that staying in school is important and SOME parents are not doing a very good job. For example, some parents don't have time to help their kids out with school because they are struggling to keep the cash flowing. Instead of listening to a lecture about staying in school, teenagers are left home alone doing whatever they please. The parents aren't really involved in their life and no one is there to stop the teens from making bad choices. Teenagers have that stereotypical rebelious attitude because it's partly true. When you're a teenager you aren't really thinking of your future just yet. You are too bussy thinking about your sixteen birthday because you are finally going to be able drive and go out with your friends. The only reason my tweleve year-old cousin does her homework is because she said she will get in trouble and won't be able to buy her new labtop. Sure, this is a good way to get kids to do homework, but do they really know the importance of an education?
I don't think so, because not only are kids daydreaming all the time at a young age, but parents rarely care to ask kids about their interests. It's simple all they have to do is say, " What do you want to be when you grow up." Those simple words can start a meaningful discussion. One that can help their kid's acheive future success. Now that I think of it, I wish I studied harder during freshmen year because I don't think those grades reflect my work ethic. I know I could have done better, but what happend? I was too bussy thinking about what college is going to be like. I wanted to make as many friends as I can, take trips because I'm away from my parents, and join a sorrirty too. All my focus seemed to be on my social life instead of my academic life. Fortunately, Somone ( you know who you are ;D) was there to tell me that friends do not matter and they were right. Your friends will be there at your birthday, they will help you maybe when you have a bad day, but they can't be there for you all the time. In the end, my friends will graduate and I'll make other friends. Friends come and go, but family is always there (if you are lucky). The whole purpose of college is to make social connections to prepare yourself in the communication skills you will need to aquire for later AND obviously focus on getting your degree; don't let your social life get in the way of your academic plans.
Overall, Obama's is trying to provide additonal support for those parents trying to enforce the idea that school is very important. Those parents who have a problem with his politcal background need to wake up and smell the cofee.


Monday, September 7, 2009

The Most Common Question Ever Asked: Where Do You See Yourself In Ten Years?


This question (stated above,) is the most common question interviewers will ask. (Yes, This question is much more important than the question about the crocodile and the shark; lol :)). I have been asked this question in grade school like three times. Okay, fine... It was a little different each time because each question asked a different time period. For example, in third grade I was asked, "where will you be in ten years?", in fourth grade I was asked, "where you see yourself in twenty years?", and etc. It's all the same idea though.
Anyways, it's a complicated question, in my opinion.It all depends on what's going on in my life right now. What I do now will affect my future. For instance, I am studying for the LSAT. If I don't do so well I won't see myself as a lawyer in ten years, unless I eventually get the score I need. Another thing that can greatly impact my future is marriage. Who I spend the rest of my life with can greatly impact what kind of a person I am in the future, verses what kind of person I am today. For example, say I marry someone who isn't financially stable, who doesn't come from a good family, and who treats me unfairly. I don't think I would be as happy, or spoiled (or as I'd like to put it fortunate), and I will be really cheap. If that did happen I would definitely change as a person. That experience would make me realize what it's like to deal with financial problems; maybe I would even learn how to deal with unfair people, since I would be living with someone who is unfair. Also, perhaps I won't be as nice as I am today. Perhaps, being with someone who treats me unfair will transform me into a bitter, old Grinch.
That's why it's important to have a strong personality and to hold on to your morals. Being in some situations can change you as a person, but one thing that will never change (I hope) is that I will always hold on to my morals.
Moving on, the response I gave is probably not the response interviewers are looking for and I would never respond that way in an interview. That response however, is okay when asked those types of questions in grade school. In an interview I would say nothing at first, because I would probably choke for a brief moment and then suddenly recollect my thoughts. If things are going according to plan, then I would be a thirty year old lawyer who is married. The reason I see myself as a lawyer is because I have always been passionate about law. I'm all about being righteous and having good morals. I would only break the law if the law was unjust. As for being married, in my culture people always make fun of you if you are old and single. Seriously though, I think settling down is better than playing around...

Here Is a Meaningless Question: Which One Would You Rather Get Eaten By A Shark Or A Croc?

(Salt Water crocodile eating a shark) ---> Instead of a shark in it's mouth that would be ME! ;()
Those of you reading this, this is a really random blog. Yes, I know (it's weird). What in the world made me think of this question, I really don't know. I remember asking it when I went on a cruise in spring. No one was talking. It was one of those awkward silences; no one really understands why it happens, but it does. Since no one was talking, I started to daydream about the ocean. It makes sense; we were on a cruise. The ocean reminded me of a shark and the crocodile just scares me even though there was no way I could run into a crock during the cruise. Without even realizing, I blurted out, " What would you guys rather be eaten by: a shark or a crocodile?" At the time I was with my sister and her friends from her dental college. They just looked at me and started laughing, but they did start debating on which one is worse and it lasted a while.

So, which is worse a crock or a shark? One of the girls said she would rather be eaten by a shark because it seems less painful then being eaten by a crocodile. Her reasoning was made by jugging the shark and crocodile's teeth. It's funny; of course she would think about teeth she wants to be a dentist. My sister said she would also pick a shark because a crocodile can not only attack you on land, but also in water since it is both a land and water animal. It's logical; at least with a shark you can try to swim away and try to reach land. I even asked my other sister this question, even though she wasn't on the cruise. She is really strange because the only reason she picked a crocodile was because she'd like to see one and it's so common to be eaten by a shark. I guess i see her point, being eaten by a crocodile is rare, which makes it more interesting.

Personally, I also think I'd rather be eaten by a shark, than a crocodile. There are several reasons why. For example, looking at teeth was a good idea. Sharks have not only one set of teeth, but multiple sets. If i was going to die I would want to get it over with as soon as possible. These sharp teeth would shred me up in just seconds. Verses, a crocodile who would probably torture me because he can't chew as fast and it would be a slow painful death. Second, bloody cuts and wounds would hurt really bad in salt water if a shark was actually going to bite me. BUT, a crocodile does this really weird death roll and would snap my bones. I definitely don't want to be rolled on; it looks like it hurts since that thing is so huge, rough, and spiky.

Lastly, crocodiles, or even alligators (because I always confuse the two), seem much more aggressive than sharks. Sharks don't growl or make noises. My sister is right when she made the point about the crocodile being a land animal. Crocodiles won't give it up as easily as a shark. when dealing with a shark you are less likely to be eaten, only bitten. Think about it; people swim with sharks, but no one messes with a crock. Except for the crocodile hunter. If I was in the ocean with the shark there is a chance I would survive. I've heard of people getting shark bites and they are still alive to tell their story. Unlike the shark, the crocodile is mean and green! I feel like it would chase me out of the water and onto land. It probably won't leave me alone because it has an advantage over me. I am very clumsy when I run, I get tired, and the crocodile's strong grip would make it difficult for me to escape. It's bad enough that my flesh would be caught in it's mouth, so I wouldn't appreciate the crocodile's additional death roll. The crocodile would start growling happily, gnawing on my bones, while the shark would hopefully just swallow me. If not swallow then at least it's an easy death. I just don't like the crocodile's image. It's a grossly green, vicious, dirty, monster!

Do I REALLY Want To Be A Lawyer?


It's always hard to figure out what you want your occupation to be later in life. Some people realize this at a very young age. For example, it's very cliché to realize one wants to become a doctor simply because when they were younger they use to play doctor with their sick bear. Others however, particularly during their college years, don't really know because they change their major too many times. Another example: my sister. She was actually headed towards law school because my mother had insisted it. But later, during her third year she realized that she just wasn’t interested in law; I guess it didn't fit her personality. Instead, she ended up graduating from dental school.

Anyways, enough about her. The point is that I really don't know what I will become, even though I have my mind set on law school. Who knows...maybe I might change last minute. This thought had occurred to me during a car ride to subway, (weird huh?). I was discussing an email I got from a lawyer. He said he didn't have any programs I could participate in and he didn't even bother letting me know if I can shadow him. He did however, invite me to have lunch with him and his colleagues and workers at his office. I haven't been to a dinner with such people, so it did seem slightly intimidating. I didn't think about what to discuss at the dinner; I was going to just go with the flow. That is until I was asked, "what are you going to say if they ask what kind of lawyer you want to be ?" I do know about some of the different types of lawyers such as attorneys, corporate lawyers, and business lawyers, but I couldn't really tell you what kind of lawyer I want to be. This got me worried because what if I look at all the different kinds of lawyers and then waste my time looking at lawyers because I suddenly decide to be a detective ! Or even worse, I don't even get accepted to law school.

Even though it stresses me out to think like this, I take it as a good thing! Common, at least I have the opportunity to have options. Some people don’t have an opportunity to even think about what they want to be. For instance, my parents are lucky because they survived and everything worked out for them, despite the fact that they didn’t attend college. They didn’t have many options since they were too poor to afford school in India. Unlike the U.S., in India school wasn’t free. Also, back then schooling wasn’t seen as valuable. The only reason my father had a seven siblings was because the family needed to survive by working on the farm. The more kids, the more workers. Furthermore, my mom came from a family of six who weren’t educated either. If you are wondering how my parents survived, they did what any other foreigner did: come to America. And it worked…my parents started a business and are self-employed. I’m not going to go too much in detail with that cause I feel kind of bad; it might sound like I am being “proudy.” But, I am not like that; I really don’t do that because I think it’s bad luck. It’s like that superstition that if one celebrates good things and is gloating too much, it could result in something negative; like losing something good.

Back to my point, I still don’t know what kind of lawyer I want to be and what the future has in store for me. My solution is simply this: doing more research on the different kinds of lawyers that best fit my personality, research more about law-school if I really do want to get accepted, and get good grades along with a good Lsat score to even have law school as my option. It’s nice to have options and not worry about paying for law school either. I am really lucky and owe it all to my parents. Without them, my situation wouldn’t be this easy.

On The Next Operah: The Price to Pay For Beauty


I am sitting here watching Oprah while writing this blog lol. It's very interesting because they are talking about the definition of beauty for different cultures around the world.
For example, in Oman very shiny Omani dresses and Burkas that define the eyes are considered a sign of beauty. The Omani dresses are colorful and attract attention and the Burkha as one woman states, “makes the eyes stand out because there are different shapes to accentuate her eyes." These women also apply heavy liner and shadow for additional attraction. Another example is in Japan, where skin is considered the most important component. Have you ever wondered why Japanese women have such nice, clear porcelain skin? Their secret is drinking cologne with water every day and also applying bird poop to their face. The bird poop is what makes the skin soft, and supple; while the cologne keeps the skin youthful.
However, not all countries have safe beauty practices like Oman and Japan. Some beauty practices cause a great deal of pain and discomfort, but that’s the price one has to pay to look perfect. In Malaysia women wear a huge gold brace around their neck to show that they are not only wealthy, but have attractive necks. This brace is very uncomfortable since the women can’t move their necks freely, and the weight of the brace puts a lot of pressure on their body. This practice starts at a very young age; a girl that looked about ten was forced to wear the brace. Similarly, in China women who have bounded feet also show a sign of wealth and grace. This practice is no longer valid, but they use to bind young Chinese girl’s feet using string. It was extremely painful because the string would wound the feet by crushing her bones and her toes would naturally start to point. The string is supposed to be kept on for months. When the girl finally takes the string off, she can no longer walk normally, and instead she walks on her toes. Walking on her toes makes the girls seem more feminine because she can’t walk fast, creating a slow, graceful pace.
Contrary to the America, women in Africa struggle to gain weight by force feeding themselves and younger girls a high amount of fatty-enriched, soupy substance. I have no clue what they were eating but, it made them extremely obese because when they couldn’t eat anymore they vomit the food and then continue eating again. It was really sad because men over there say that they would not trade an extremely fat woman for a skinny one, even though the man himself is skinny! It’s all about the women; its seems as though men don’t need to worry too much about their appearance cause women outnumber men significantly. Furthermore, women in Thailand dread their bodies after pregnancy because they no longer have a nice figure. It is such a big deal because they feel insecure around their husband. The solution to this problem is to wrap themselves from abs down to uterus in a thick, long, bandage-type cloth. It was so funny watching the lady wrap another Thailand woman with this cloth cause she asked her if she can breathe and the Thailand women replies No and the lady answered “perfect”.
Anyways, watching this episode of Oprah has taught me many things about other cultures and women are all connected in one way: WE CARE TOO MUCH ABOUT APPEARANCE. But is that our fault? No, that’s just the way it works because women are always recognized for their beauty first and then other things second. This is not to say that this is always the case but it’s most likely true. Also I don’t want to put the males down because some women judge appearance first also. No one wants to even approach one who doesn’t look hygienic, and no one wants to get to know someone that they aren’t physically attracted to. It’s really harsh, but the truth hurts. I think a lot of women (and men) accept this: if they didn’t they wouldn’t try so hard to look good lol.

Friday, September 4, 2009

New Apartment

I have been living in my new apartment for about a month now! I really enjoy living here because it is a gated community so I won't have to deal with people trying to damage my car or even break my window shield. That may seem like I was living on the south side of Tucson, but in reality it's just a few minutes from U of A actually. The apartment complex was called Arizona Commons 2, which was located on Euclid. It was very unprofessional; they actually lost my file and had me come in to sign another one. Even more ridiculous is that my sister signed my lease and that's illegal! I tried to move out of this place using that excuse, but the land lord said the lease is still valid even though my sister had signed for me. I didn't want to get my sister in trouble so I just agreed to stay; it wasn't my sister's fault because they told her to sign for me. One night during my stay at AZ commons, someone had pulled my Mercedes Ben's bumpers out. I don't exactly know why because I had no enemies so I don't know who was responsible. I think it was out of pure jealousy because maybe I had a nice car lol; who knows. Not only was the area bad, but it really sucked to live with my sister and her friend. My sister would always invite people into my room and she'd leave the place completely filthy; smelling like hookah. Her friend Leena didn't do these things, but she never cleaned the place. I was the one who was always doing the dishes and taking out the trash. At least now at my new apartment the place is clean, but I'm still the only one who takes the trash out. This place does come with a dish washer, which I absolutely love and a laundry machine too. The only bad thing about this place is that it isn’t furnished. There is another topic I have to tell you about. My roommates didn’t bring any new furniture for the apartment and it was all me!! I brought a coffee table, a DVD player, a TV stand, a large dining table with chairs, stools for the countertop table, and not to mention a leather couch! I didn’t want my roommate’s friends to use my couch because I don’t trust them; so I decided to move the leather couch in my room! Another luxury about my apartment is that I have a huge room with a bathroom inside! It’s the same size as the master bedroom; the only difference is that I don’t have a walk-in closet. This apartment complex feels just like a house without a garage. It takes a lot to manage this place. We have to set up the water, cable, internet, gas, and electric. None of the water, electric, gas, and internet is included in the rent fee; we have to pay those separately. Guess who ended up setting those things up…? That’s right ME! One of my roommates, Dilisha, brought dishes and other things for the kitchen like pots, pans, cups, etc. I’m glad she did SOMETHING lol. It’s okay though I’m better off in this new apartment than the old one at AZ commons so I should be thankful and I am :).